Sometimes
the worst of it happens in the mind.
Physical weakness, I can deal with. Big purple bruises where the needle pierced my skin to inject sedation fluid (which my boss jokingly mistook to be abuse), I can take.
But the hardest of battles is in
choosing not to get booged down and miserable in the circumstance, or indulge in a pity-party, as one is wont to do (and probably people would understand too).
Yet what kind of life would that be? Going around looking drawn and sad. The proverb "laughter doth good like a medicine" ain't for nothing.
It's a daily
decision to lift my eyes off myself and what I'm feeling, and up to the heavens, where my Help comes from. I'm not saying I've always been successful in doing so; so that's why this is simply part of the molding, strengthening process.
To indeed be joyful and thankful in ALL circumstances.
He's been speaking to me through
Psalm 73:26 -
My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my
portion forever.
Flesh - Physically hit, check.
Heart - Emotionally hit, check.
But He is the
STRENGTH of my heart. Where my emotions fail, He doesn't. He carries me through and puts that smile on my face.
And my
PORTION. Always wondered what "portion" meant. My 'piece'? My 'share'?
Then I checked out dictionary.com :
your overall circumstances or condition in life (including everything that
happens to you)
He is my destiny! He is my life's condition! Everything that happens to me is His!
So why fret? Why worry? My life is in the ablest of hands.
He is my portion not just yesterday, not just today, but FOREVER and EVER and EVER...!
He's worthy to be praised lah. He's too good to be true - but it IS the truth that He is :)
And of course, another perk of this whole situation is -
I GET FLOWERS!!!
And a BEAR!!!
The last time I got such a full bouquet was (counting intently here) 7 years ago? From my first and only then-boyfriend?
Though this is not from a secret admirer, and from a happily married couple at that...
I'M STILL SO HAPPY!
Girls are suckers for flowers, impractical as they are :) Well, even if they wilt, I've still got the BEAR!!!
Mmm :) THANK YOU PM & PAL! :)
