With the request from a friend (Hi, R :)), I shall make it a point to document my "brain-fast"...

(Oh my you won't believe it, my tax prof just called me on the handphone to clarify my tax questions! At 11.57pm! Eeks... but better late than never eh...)

Anyway, back to serious stuff :)

Day 3 (28 May)
It is surprisingly harder than expected. As I sat in my beanbag, yearning to take a break from NOR and IPCs, I so wanted to take refuge in the Life! section, or at least whip out TODAY to take a look at the day's headlines (as well as Mr Brown's witty commentary). But instead, I grabbed hold of Peter Youngren's You Can Receive Healing Today, as well as John Maxwell's Be All You Can Be. And it was like God speaking directly to me - every single word hit! And what better way to be refreshed, than to hear Him speaking to you at your point of need. Once again I thank God for the Holy Spirit, my Comforter and Friend, who truly works in ways I never expect.

Day 4 (29 May aka Today)
Have never felt the attacks on the mind so acutely as today. Not just with thoughts of reading the secular (today's Lifestyle! was mocking me from my kitchen), but with a deluge of negativity. I'm just beginning to understand how the mind is satan's stronghold. I dunno if I should feel scared or privileged to be attacked so - cos satan won't bother with those that aren't a threat. So, in a sense, I must be doing something right. And yet, the Word does warn us to "be careful if we think we're standing firm, lest we fall".

And to be honest - I succumbed, twice.

And now I rest in His grace, thoroughly ashamed, made more fully aware of my weakness, and of His unmerited favour towards me in saving me this wretched soul. Yes, I'm wretched, once lost, but now found, not because I did anything to deserve it, but simply because He, in His unfanthomable love, chose to reach out to me, touch me, and hold me. Closer than a friend, warmer than a father - He's my Papa God. I feel so unworthy - I choose to hide under the shadow of His wings, in the palm of His hand, in the folds of His embrace. To submit myself anew, to His renewing and His love and His peace that surpasses all understanding that will guard my heart and MIND in Christ Jesus.

Lord, I can't fight this battle alone. I need you Lord. Holy Spirit, I need Your power, to truly be an overcomer, that my victory may be testament to Your reality and goodness!