Just finished shooting off some emails for LIB, Strat and MA matters, so now taking a short break before getting onto reading "Getting To Yes" for the Negotiation journal. Much to do, but praise God, I've had a superbly fruitful evening. Now just hoping to catch up on a lot of overdue reading, especially for Strat (quiz on Tue!).

Today I went for the interview with GS. Honestly I wasn't really prepared (I had totally no clue what private wealth management was all about), and went there just as I was (with an additional slight cold). The interview process itself was an experience. Instead of just speaking to one person, as I had initially expected, 3 people interviewed me consecutively. What struck me about the 3 was that they were outspoken, confident, and a tad more aggressive than what I'm used to, but I guess that's my foretaste of the working world, where not everyone's gonna be all nice and polite and gentle with you.

After the 3rd person, I was asked to decide on whether I want to continue seeing more people, which would bring me closer to the internship position, or whether I wanted to leave it off there. Though private wealth management seems like a really interesting and challenging area that I'd otherwise love to take up, I'm not willing to spend 0730h-0000h days in the office, so I made the decision to stop the interview process there.

So I left the interview with a bit more knowledge on private wealth management, some tips on how to improve my resume, but more importantly, an awareness that I need to seriously start considering what I want to do, because I think I came across being rather unsure of what I want. Well, I do know what I don't want - a job in an accounting firm, being a lawyer, and sacrificing inordinate amounts of time that I would need for rest and effective ministry, and some say that's half the battle won. But I myself am increasingly recognising the need for me to go into specifics regarding what I do want, not just in terms of airy-fairy statements like "I like to handle projects", "I want to be part of a team", "I need to be sold out to the cause of the firm" etc. While I definitely wish to join a non-accounting firm, I'm not particular about which industry, nor am I quite sure of what kind of job I'll take up in such a company, though in all likelihood it'll be one of an accountant, at least to begin with.

So many thoughts have been running through my head since I left the GS interview. Some of them were tempting me to just take the easy way out and accept the job in an accounting firm, or to join my university as an academic. BUT that's not what God has placed on my heart the last time I prayed. And though I really don't know how exactly things are going to fall into place, especially in view that reality calls for fresh grads to work long hours in most jobs, YET I want to continue to walk by faith and claim the job that would support the ministry, and which would be an awesome testimony of God's embarrassing goodness to me. It may seem foolish, but God's wisdom can sometimes seem to be foolishness to men, and I don't want to make the mistake of using human rationalisation to fulfil God's plan for me, just as Abraham did initially with Hagar. Guess the key is to continue to be prayerful and to daily abide in the Lord, letting the Holy Spirit guide my every footstep and decision, and trusting the Lord with all my heart without leaning on my own understanding, acknowledging Him in all my ways, and then know that He'll direct my paths as He has promised in Proverbs.

Lead me on, Holy Spirit.

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